Deception or surprise

When you desperately wait for something to happen and it does not, deception takes over. But when something nice happens and you were not expecting it, then it is a nice surprise. I prefer to have nice surprises in life rather than deceptions. In spite of having a positive attitude, in most situations I prefer to expect the worst case scenario. Thus if something goes wrong, I have already anticipated for it, otherwise i'm nicely surprised. It's hard to expect the worst though when you start thinking about the benefits that you can get with the good. Thought interferes with ideas, but one needs to control thought and suppress it when required.

How does one feel, when one has no news from someone one cares for? No phone calls, no mails, nothing, just void. It surely is a feeling of frustration, unbearable agony, emptiness, helplessness. Sometimes it happens that a person is so close but still very far away or even unreachable. Is hope a solution? Hope is meaningless and has nothing concrete in it, whereas facts are realistic. One has to be realistic in life and never live on hopes...